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Looks can be deceiving…..

What’s going on inside…..

What do you see in the photo above? I have a smile, I’m posing for a photo, using a filter to make me look better, this is what I do day by day, I put on a face, I smile, I laugh, I do things with my kids, but in the background, what’s really going on…..

I’m thinking of ways to raise money to fund a new wheelchair I am desperately in need of as the one I have is not doing the job it was purchased for. I have researched so many charities to help my chair plight, but they are all turning me down.

I am thinking about how I am going to make Christmas perfect for my kids after missing out when I was having my treatment, and I also need to make sure they have all they need day to day.

I am in pain, but I’m always masking it, I’m so good at it it’s become a norm not a challenge, I have it down to a fine art.

I’m trying to run a home and make sure my partner and kids are fed and watered and have clean clothes and a clean house. That often means I go without things to make sure they are taken care of.

I’m thinking about the way society sees me and views me, do people talk behind my back about me? Do they think I’m lazy for not working, and I guess for asking for help to raise money for my chair, an item most people will say I don’t need, are they commenting on my weight gain from not being able to be active, do they say I’m lazy?

Anyhow, my point in this – when people say I’m ok, they probably are not ok, they just put on the “ok face” so think how you can help, be kind and be careful what you say as words can and do harm.

Lots of love Sxxx

If you could, please pop over to my gofundme, and even if you cannot donate, please please share it for me.

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My worst nightmare came true…..

Pedestrian Crossing

On my way home from the school run this morning I pulled up at the crossing in my wheelchair, as I do every morning we “walk” to school. HOWEVER, today wasn’t like a normal day, today my electronic brakes failed, and a wheeled out into the road. Luckily it was only around 50/75cm (but that’s too much) and cars went round me as I frantically tried to go backward onto the path, which just wasn’t happening.

It made me think how incredibly lucky I was, when I thought about what else could have happened, it could have been fatal. It was 8:45am, the middle of the school run/rush hour traffic. We know from experience that cars don’t always stop for things in the road at those lights (rip Moo’s pink METAL water bottle that she dropped one Friday on the way home from school) as they are simply going too fast or are distracted.

I know I keep pushing my link for my gofundme, but I realised today how important the new chair is, not just for my mobility, but for my safety. I understand people cannot necessarily afford to donate, but if you could share my link, or send me info of charities/people who may be able to help me it would be appreciated!

Lots of love

Sxxx

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