What do you see in the photo above? I have a smile, I’m posing for a photo, using a filter to make me look better, this is what I do day by day, I put on a face, I smile, I laugh, I do things with my kids, but in the background, what’s really going on…..
I’m thinking of ways to raise money to fund a new wheelchair I am desperately in need of as the one I have is not doing the job it was purchased for. I have researched so many charities to help my chair plight, but they are all turning me down.
I am thinking about how I am going to make Christmas perfect for my kids after missing out when I was having my treatment, and I also need to make sure they have all they need day to day.
I am in pain, but I’m always masking it, I’m so good at it it’s become a norm not a challenge, I have it down to a fine art.
I’m trying to run a home and make sure my partner and kids are fed and watered and have clean clothes and a clean house. That often means I go without things to make sure they are taken care of.
I’m thinking about the way society sees me and views me, do people talk behind my back about me? Do they think I’m lazy for not working, and I guess for asking for help to raise money for my chair, an item most people will say I don’t need, are they commenting on my weight gain from not being able to be active, do they say I’m lazy?
Anyhow, my point in this – when people say I’m ok, they probably are not ok, they just put on the “ok face” so think how you can help, be kind and be careful what you say as words can and do harm.
Lots of love Sxxx
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